I've Wished For Hope,
With Clenched Fists I Strife,
Memories Of A Shattered Past,
Struggling Just To Survive.

I've Wished For Hope,
I've Wished For Love,
I've Wished For This Pain To End,
I've Wished For The Darkness To Fade Away,
But Is This, Is This The End?

I've Just Been Hoping And Wishing,
Shrouded Was The Truth,
Of Reality, Of Life To See,
Putting An End...... To My Misery......
This Veil Of Deception Hid From Me,
The Cursed, Mind-Numbing Ecstasy.......

I've Wished For Hope,
I've Wished For Love,
I've Wished For This Pain To End,
I've Wished For The Darkness To Fade Away,
But Is This, Is This The End?

These Approaching Tendrils Of The Night Choke Me,
Coiling Around, My Neck, They Tighten Their Grip,
But No, I Won't Let It End So Soon,
There Is Still So Much Misery That Can Be Caused,
This Isn't How I'm Gonna Let It End,
But Is This, Is This The End...........???

I've Wished For Hope,
I've Wished For Love,
I've Wished For This Pain To End,
I've Wished For The Darkness To Fade Away,
But Is This, Is This The End?

White Flashes Appear Before My Eyes,
As I, As I Approach The End....


As I, As I Approach MY END!!!

With Cold Immortal Hands I Try To Feel,
The Heart In You Which I Thought Unreal,
But Then I Thought What If It Were True,
Like The Wicker Flame Dancing To You,
I Never Imagined Us Here Together,
But We're Still Apart For Now, Forever,
And Thus My Love For You Shall Prevail,
Till Forever, Till My Grave,
But There Was Many A Time, You Broke My Trust,
You Left Me Strangling In Your Chains Of Lust,
Like A Hunter, Cleverly Stalking His Prey.
But Never Could I Stop Loving You,
Though My Hatred Steadily Grew,
You Wrecked My Heart, The Pain For You,
Has Turned A Sin That Won't Undo.


I Think About You, Everyday, Every Night,
And Sometimes I Doubt If My Choice Was Right,
But I'll Right The Wrong, I'll Wrong The Written.......
My Love For You No Longer Hidden,
I Trust You Will Change With The Passage Of Time....
But All I Can Remember Are All Your Deceitful Crimes,
Because What You Did Will Not Undo.....
The Scars Tell Tales, The Pain Won't Conclude,
But I Will Go On, Even If It Is Just Another Trick,
I'll Just Silently Watch,Though It's Getting me Ticked,
And As These Ticking Clocks Seem To Slow Their Counts....
Drowning Slowly In This Vermilion Gaunt,
And Now I Know That You Are My Life's Gauntlet,
You're The Reason To Why I Keep Trying To Move Ahead,
But As I Try And Think again....I Now Comprehend What I Dread.....
It Is The Path To Which I Am Lead....By You.....


I'm Turning Insane!!

"This One's For Her"

The Slow Change In Me Is Grasping My Soul,
A Perfect World On The Other Side Of Me,
Gripping Tighter, It's Clutching My Heart,
The Pain's Unbearable....


Where'd You Go?,
So Far Away From Me,
I Love You So Much,
Baby, Can't You See?

Can Anybody Hear Me Screaming Your Name Out So Loud?,
Has Anybody Felt These Feelings That Have Aroused,
In My Frozen Heart, I Lay Here, Pounding Away At Your Door,
Why Can't We Be Together ?, My Heart Is Sore,
From Begging You To Come Back, Come Back To Me.....

Every Thought Inside My Head,
Is Your Picture Locked Deep Inside,
And Every Feeling Inside My Heart,
Reminds Me Of The Love That Resides....
In My Heart, In My Soul, In My Thoughts, In My Voice,
I Give It Up To You, It's All Your Choice........

I Can't See You Anymore,
I Can't Hear You Anymore,
I Can't Feel You Anymore,
I Can't Talk To You Anymore,
But I Can Never Stop Loving You,
I Need You Here, My Song Is True....
Without You, I'm Empty Inside,
I Feel So Numb, With The Pain That Besides,
The Loneliness Is Tearing Me Apart,
Just Give Me Another Chance, I'll Give You My Heart....

I Love You More Than Life Itself,
I Love You More Than I Can Tell,
I Love You More Than Anything Else

Random...As Always

Buried Deep In My Heart,
Was The Burning Rage,
Growing With Passing Time,
I Began To Hate,
Every Person, Every Place, Every Song , Every Day,
Every Voice, Every Choice, Every Thought, Every Way,
But The Hate Was Just My Love Of Being Alone,
The Black Heart-rot, Like An Evil Deed Done,
Growing Tendrils That Crept Deep Inside Me,
A Life Of Deceit Made Me So,
A Renegade, I'm Not Afraid Anymore,
And Though I Try To Forget And Bury Them Away,
They Return To Haunt Me, In My Heart, Hidden, They Lay,
I Forget, I Fret , I Try Not To Look Back,
But Her Face Still Haunts Me, A Faint Shadow,
I'm Giving It All Up, I'm Losing Control, I'm Loosing Hope....There Is No Hope...

This One Goes Out To All My Awesome Friends Out There....

If you ever want a person who's help you may need......If you ever need a person whom you can trust at dire times as well.......If you need someone who's shoulders you wanna cry on....If you need an individual who motivates you and encourages you to take the right decision....If you need a person who is readily available for you....I'm the guy your looking for.


For I have been looking endlessly for people who could understand me and my feelings.....Tired and dreary from this endless quest I return empty handed......I then figured I had been wasting time because you were exactly what I was looking for.You were right beside me, hidden in my shadows, sometimes looking after me like a guardian angel.....What a pure soul you have.


Today I understood all that you sacrificed just for me.....And I would like to thank you for sharing amongst us Our joys, Our sorrows, Our experiences, Even our outcome of the day.I have assured myself of what I truly think of you as....I think of you as a desert rose....You're one in a million and I'm lucky to know all of you....Im lucky to have a freind like you.


And so I would like to express my dearest gratitude to you....But how?


I could not understand why I did not find a perfect freind a soulmate....and then I slowly understood that it was because I already had you....What more could I ask? Others discouraged my thoughts, my ideas and left me down in the dumps...But it was you who never lost hope and put me on the right path since when I met you.This gave me confidence, it gave me
strength, strength to rise to a position where I can easily sustain myself....I owe it all to you guys.


I still don't understand how to thank you enough and express myself.....Without you I am a mere child, Dumb and carefree, an exact opposite of what I am meant to be.Only you know my secrets, Only you know my fears, Only you know my likes and dislikes, Only you know my true character.....If it weren't for you I would be nothing but an unworhty, unkempt ,helpless
dog.Had you not put me on the right track....I would have been in shambles now....So thank you friends for all you have done for me,as you are one of the primary reasons why I thank god for a life like mine.....I know I'll always have you as a friend for ever.....and trust me....You will have me as a friend forever as well.

Poor you............Good Luck bearing me.......I trust you will really need it.

"The Final Judgement"

The Right Was Wronged,The Written Erased,

Our Lives Scorched By "His" Divine Rage,

And As We Face The Final Judgement Of Our Cause,

Nearing An End To The Eternal Clause, Life.....

The Day Of Apocalypse,Of Inevitable Death,

Conclusively Approaches As We Count Our Last Breaths,

But We Won't Let Go,Its Human Intution,

The Pain Shall Be Surmounted By Mortal Evolution......

But As We Are, We Shall Not Lose Hope......

We Kept Ignoring The Things Around Which Our Lives Revolved,

Conquering Our Destinies, As We Evolved,

Into Unknown Creatures,Barbaric And Yet So Weak,

Flashes Of Silver Accross The Sky Streak,

And This Silver Lining Shines Above Those Who Graced Death,

A Few Mortal Souls Is All That Is Left.....

We Slowly Head Towards Evangelion.....

The Tidings Of Ecstasy That We Had Thought To Reach,

Were Vanquished By The Corpses Of Those Who Did Not Breach,

For Those Who Valiantly Stood Alone,Things Did Not Resolve,

They Lie In A Puddle Of Bloody Grime,For They Could Not Evolve.....

But As We Are,We Did Not Lose Hope.....

We Kept Ignoring The Things Around Which Our Lives Revolved,

Conquering Our Destinies, As We Evolved,

Into Unknown Creatures,Barbaric And Yet So Weak,

Flashes Of Silver Accross The Sky Streak,

And This Silver Lining Shines Above Those Who Graced Death,

A Few Mortal Souls Is All That Is Left.....

And As It Is,We Disapproved The Compulsion Of Fate,

Yet We Tend To Blaze Alive In Flames Of Hate,

For The Right Was Wronged And The Written Erased,

Our Lives Scarred By "His" Divine Rage,

And Those Who Thought To Evade The Sands Of Time,

Now Lie,Corpses Rotting In A Bloody Puddle Of Grime......

Now Asleep The Valiant Lie, Forever.... Forever..... Forever......

"The Burning Tower"

Burn On,Burn Up,Burn Out,Till You're Scorched

Blazing Alive In The Burning Tower,
A Lifeless corpse in the burning tower,

Wont you come and save me from the burning tower?,

A chill runs down my spine in the burning tower.....

Deeply Enchanted By Your Call I Returned,

Back From The Worlds Of Forbidden Love,

But As I Burn On,Im Helpless And Lean,

So Come Put Out My Flames With Gasoline,

This Love For You,This Vermilion Gaunt,

Has Haunted Me Too Much,Its Been Too Long,

The Tendrils Of Darkness Have Grasped My Soul,

They Slowly Drag Me Into Worlds Unknown,

I Never Imagined Us Here Together,

But Were Still Apart For Now,Forever,

And Thus My Love For You Shall Prevail,

Till The End Of Time,Till My Grave.....

Blazing Alive In The Burning Tower,

A Lifeless corpse in the burning tower,

Wont you come and save me from the burning tower?,
A chill runs down my spine in the burning tower....

Here I Lie In A Pool Of Blood,

Waiting For You To Come To Me,

And As I Burn On,My Flesh Is Charred,

In My Heart,You're Name,Deeply Carved,

I Call Out In Hope Of You Finding Me,

But All I Get Is Pain And Misery,

And As The Ticking Clocks Slow Their Count,

White Flashes Appear Before My Eyes,

It's The End For Me,I Grace My Death,

With Words Of Endurance,With My Last Breath,

Before My Eyes,Black Clouds Start To Hover,

Why Didn't You Come And Save Me From The Burning Tower?

Blazing Alive In The Burning Tower,

A Lifeless corpse in the burning tower,

Wont you come and save me from the burning tower?,

A chill runs down my spine in the burning tower.....

"Now I Breathe My Last Breath In This Burning Tower........"